''Loosing that acting buzz''

Rather that should be ''lost''.

Any who this tale is about my few years doing drama/acting, then the reason for stopping.

As a youngling, I was part of my local 'amateur drama group', and I remained in it until I was 17 or so. No problem there, I did such shows as ''Calamity Jane''(twice), ''Annie'', ''Cinderella'', ''Fiddler on the Roof'', and ''The Music Man''. The first three were with the youth section, and the other two were with the adult section.

So, I did a fair few shows with the society, which is all fine and well. As for parts, I was never a confident actor, that's to say I wasn't ever pushing to get any top parts, I was happy enough with getting what I got; after all I was it wasn't my idea to be part of the group, but I will admit I had a fair few years of fun. However, considering that I had been enthusiastic about doing shows for many years, there came a point when someone switched the ''enthusiastic'' off.

During the production of 'The Music Man', I didn't really feel as if I had been enjoying rehearsals, but using knowledge and experience assumed that the first night I would get that ''buzz'' from performing in front of an audience.... But, for whatever reason, I didn't get any sensation. I think I enjoyed the show, but not as much as any previous show. Sorry if this sounds all silly and things, but - it's hard to explain - I think for Music Man I was just set on auto-pilot, do what you need to do and go home. Part of that may be because a lot of people had said that the show wasn't a good one, in saying that I really enjoyed Fiddler on the Roof (I took part in L'Chaim...), and people say that's a depressing musical..each to their own I suppose.

Simply put, I don't think I was destined to do 'drama' for longer than I had done, some people may smerk at that, but hey it's just the way things go. As I said earlier, it wasn't my idea to join, so I think it makes sense that there would come a point that that might actually show itself. Unless you are the sort of person with songs, music, acting in your blood, you probably wont last too long, if you get me? All I'm trying to say is, for me at least, I had a good time, but it was my time to get off the drama-train.

In fairness, it probably made me more confident, although in the long run it's good I moved away. The main reason being the fact I had a feeling it would take some doing to do ''Exams'' and shows at the same time. After the Music Man (during the start of my A levels), I left, and had mentioned that it was a good move, I mean what would have the point been of continuing doing something (that the drama-based-friends wanted me to do) that I didn't truly enjoy at that time?... I'm probably just blogging the obvious here, but still that's not wrong.

It was better of me to drop out, than try and take it up as a profession, and be something that I had no real chance of being. Looking at it, I think it goes without saying that there are lots of people who think they've got ''it'', but in reality ''it'' isn't that good. I'm not saying don't go for your dreams, but really, with something like drama, you need to be sure as hell you are good enough, because it's very competitive. Of course do it as a hobby, past-time if you enjoy doing it, but if you think you're good enough to be on The West End, Broadway and so forth, well I'm no expert, but you need to have been told, and believe you are good enough to do it to go for the big time...it would be cruel to have your dreams broken and have nothing to fall back on.

Anyway that wraps that up as best as I can. I will admit this hasn't flowed very well, but I have done this on the spot, so I hope you've enjoyed some of what I've written.



Callum